26th Mar 1971

'But for all my reading and schooling, two Chris Guthries there were that fought for my heart and tormented me.'

2nd Apr 1971

'You knew you'd never be the same again, but the world went on, and you went with it. So you folded up your dreams and laid them away with the dark quiet corpse that was your childhood.'

9th Apr 1971

'But a worse thing came as slow September dragged to its end. A thing I would never tell a soul. Festering away in the closet of my mind, the memory would lie until it died.'

16th Apr 1971

'It wasn't like waking from a dream, marrying, but more like going into one. And I wasn't sure, not for days, what things we'd dreamt and what actually done.'

23rd Apr 1971

'Our best friends were out of Kinraddie now. But we had ourselves. And seeing your Ewan grow straight and strong, with that slim body like his father's, it made a strange dizziness go singing in my heart.'

30th Apr 1971

'Everything I had ever loved and desired went out to the madness beyond the hills on that ill road that flung its evil white ribbon down into the dusk.'